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Guys are still all bitches. I’m going to wait for the next one to show me that he actually cares for me and put aside my imperfections…. But for now, IM JUST CHILLEN ! (; Haha

So I met up with him today. Talked. Went home. Cried a little. Vented to my friends. And now I’m just feeling like a million bucks! Haha (; seriously fuck him! He wants to stay friends which is fine but this bitch better not think he can just come back whenever he wants! Uh no. If I see him ill say wassup but that’s it! If I see him at a club idk if I should either make him jealous or go make out with him HAHA jk. No! I’m not even going to make eye contact with him. I don’t need to show someone that I need them when they don’t need me. I’m not going to sit here and think of a million things I could’ve done so the outcome was different. Not going to to think about how if I would’ve texted him first sometimes, showed affection, called him baby more, hang out more etc. Fuck no. It didn’t work out for a reason and that’s that. He’s the idiot for thinking just cause one of his past relationships was like this, that this one would end up the same. Excuse me bitch but you can’t tell the future and not all relationships are the same. That shows that he doesn’t care about me at all to stick with me and fix things so fuck him!! Now that I think of it he really was just awkward at times it was hard for us to “connect”. And he’s fucking boring too. All he does is be home sleep all day, eat, not go to school, not go work out. Like I don’t want a guy like that with no ambition. I need a guy that likes to get dressed up and go to cute legit places to eat and to fun things. Someone to tell me hey I’m picking you up today and were doing this and this wear something tight(;. He would never really take me out anyway only to like IHOP twice -.- I’m an idiot too for staying there talking to him about ransoms things. Now he thinks that everything is cool instead of him actually missing this cause he know we still talk. When we were there talking at the park…it’s weird to say, but I felt a connection. The way he was looking at me smiling and laughing, I just wanted to kiss the shit out of him. Like why didn’t we have the connection before until now? That was just really confusing. I kinda forgot how I would survive being single before going out with him that now I feel lonely. But you know what summer is around the corner. So many fun nights are to come. I can have fun without worrying about anything, and do whatever the fuck I want. Meet new people. Go on vacation. Focus more on a job/school , and just become better than I was before so when he sees what I’ve accomplished he can be like oh fuck :$